lying

I just watched this show where a few females discussed cheating. They had all been cheated on and they discussed their own experiments and how they felt about it. I watched a part of it and I felt really bad and actually a bit mad too, because I know a lot of people who have cheated or been cheated on. I started thinking about it...why do people cheat? Like honestly, if you don't have feelings for me anymore, than just break up with. The whole "I didn't want to hurt you" - explanation is really lame,  because believe me, it hurts SO much less when you just say you don't feel it anymore and we're done, then to say that you love me even though you know it's a lie. While you were busy sleeping with another female, I was waiting for you even though I could have found happiness. Real happiness. Cheating makes such a mess...
Some people might think it's fun and different to cheat...yeah, you know, if you're adventurous, why don't you just go and jump off Mount Everest without anything to hang on to. There's some adventure for you.

I have had a lot going on in my family for the past...well I'm not sure how long. No cheating, I think, though I can never be sure. But a lot of lying. I used to be a lot more positive and trusting about things, and towards people. I have been through a lot but some of my closest people have been through a lot more. I have tried not to get into other people's lives to mess, but I've had to go through a lot of crap because of that. Lying is something that I just can't stand anymore. That's why if somebody starts kidding about something, I might get a little mad about that, just because it's so familiar to me these days...I sincerely think lying is some sort of an illness for...some people. I don't think anyone should have to listen to that kind of bullshit. I don't exactly believe in the saying "Once a liar, always a liar." But I do believe that if it continues for a while, it's just not going to stop with a snap of your fingers. So...don't put up with it for too long or you'll notice you're stuck in it. Within time it gets harder and harder to leave that all behind, and the longer you wait, the bigger mess it grows.
So don't put up with cheating or lying, it's not healthy for you...trust me, I know.

That's all for now..I get these weird huge strains of though at this time in the evening so I could probably write a book about one subject. Lol.

~ Janette